Facing the Inevitable

I don't want to do it.

I don't. No. No. No.

You can't make me. No!!!

Unfortunately, with things as they are, I have to return to work.

Tomorrow, Kryptonite and I are set to meet a possible baby-sitter. She seems fairly nice so far, but the thought of leaving my precious, pudgy baby with a stranger while I go off and work is a horrid concept for me.

When Precious Daughter and Mighty B. were infants, I was blessed with the assistance of DEB. DEB took excellent care of Precious Daughter while I worked part-time, and she took care of both kids while I had classes on the same nights The Oracle had to work. When the House Fairy retired and I started working, they watched both kids for us as needed.

When DEB had her stroke, the firm I worked for scheduled my hours to match the school day, which was a huge blessing. Once DEB was settled in rehab and later at home, House Fairy met the school bus and took them back to his house if I couldn't get home in time.

Really, I wouldn't know what to do without them.

Kryptonite is different. I'm not sure whether DEB has the wherewithal to handle an infant. House Fairy is of that generation that is thoroughly uncomfortable handling someone so small. Really, he's happier once they're talking and toilet trained. I understand that completely. Even with Kryptonite I get a bit stressed when she's fussy and I can't figure out why. I'm very, very grateful that House Fairy will still watch Precious Daughter and Mighty B. during summer vacation.

But, oh, I don't want to entrust Kryptonite to a stranger!!!